I am writing this post on the last day of my vacation. This Holiday season I was blessed to have time off to spend with my children for almost a week, and it was well worth every minute. It was busy with running around and lots of activities in the day- but I found myself also looking around and feeling like I was in slow motion watching life unfold before me. In 2014 I hoped for new beginnings... but what i really found was a painful ending. I hoped for a bright horizon, but instead experienced a dessert of hurt and pain. I am cautiously approaching the new year with an expectation of breaking free from my painful shell and feeling the sun again. I breath slowly as if to save my oxygen, quietly listening for any sound that may give away what lies a head of me. I will walk cautiously, but with determined step... for I know that my only hope lies in the God of my Salvation and i must trust each day to his Master Plan. I am not confident that there will not be pain on my path- the reality is that pain is part of this human life. I am not sure that there will be love to brace me from the storm- even love is not able to shield me from the cold forever. I AM positive that i will make it- even though I do not know what that picture looks like on the other side. I AM sure that the time and attention I've given my children will not go to waste - in their hearts they know I will always be their advocate. So I hold up 2014 and ask myself.... what did you learn?
Well, I learned a lot and here are a couple thoughts:
*nothing on Earth is as stable as it seems
*Friends come and go
*Love can be found unexpectedly
*I am blessed beyond measure to have the children that i have
*True joy is found in giving and sharing small moments
*Life is bigger than my mistakes
*I am strong
*I am brave
*It is ok to ask for help
*Every day is a chance to start over-- use the cards you have and play your hand
2014 was a year of storms. The wind and darkness almost engulfed me, but I open my eyes now at the start of 2015 and I am still standing...so I am believing for a sunrise on the Horizon. To feel the sun and experience a new Peace. Laughter and Singing... I am believing for a truth to become real in my life-- "the oil of Joy for Mourning". This is my start for a brand new Day.
